I’ve heard that as many as one in two Christian men struggle with addiction to pornography, and since I’m one of those men, I thought I’d write a short article about the struggle I’m in and how I deal with living a life with a smile on my face.

The guilt and shame surrounding pornography addiction is horrendous. You have a brief moment of pleasure; you get your quick fix and then the guilt comes like a heavy blanket weighing you down. There has to be a better way than a constant quick fix and then days of embarrassment.

You can’t just have so much porn that you exhaust your addiction. I am sure that many of you, one of those who have fallen from grace, have thought to yourselves that you too can sin over and over again while you have fallen. Many of you, like me, have thought that you could simply kick out of the addiction and overfill yourself. But addiction is a beast, an all-consuming fire that will take as much as we want to give it. There is simply no upper limit to the amount of porn you can watch, there seems to be no limit if you have enough bandwidth on your internet plan.

So we’ve established that you can’t wear down addiction. How about you quit smoking cold turkey? That works for some and has worked for me for periods of up to three months at a time, but it always seems to me that there is at least some trigger that sends me back to the computer and a closed door. It is terrible and fills me with remorse and shame.

Being a person who has hundreds of articles on the internet and hundreds of videos, posting this article is not so much a smart move in many people’s eyes. A lot of people would advise me not to be so blunt, but this addiction is tearing me apart and I thought I’d connect with all the other men who are struggling and share some sincere love.

I came across the grace preaching of Andrew Wommack and Joseph Prince and they helped me deal with my guilt and shame and helped lift some of the condemnation off my shoulders very nicely. Satan loves to have us in his trap and shame on him. And he just takes his toll on our relationship with Christ.

How can we be pure in spirit, pure in heart, and yet watch naked women perform? How can we walk down the street and look at women in the right and healthy way when so many times we are looking at women and girls in not so healthy ways?

“I am the righteousness of God in Christ!” Joseph Prince has told me to speak to myself and one day my body will align and do what I say. I hope so.